The Art of Becoming
A year long journey to healing.
Well, let’s be real. Healing from any kind of abuse takes longer than that. But can I be your companion on your journey for a year?
I have my fair share of narcissistic abuse experience myself and I’ve seen it all - emotional abuse, financial abuse, physical, verbal, digital and post-separation abuse. Hell I felt it too. And I believe that my own experience qualifies me to tell you - it shall pass … it will get better … you are worth so much more … I believe in you!
As I was going through ups and down of unhealthy dynamic myself, I was not able to name everything that was going on in or around me. However once I found my way to safety and started healing, it all crawled back to me. All those moments, emotions and memories were visiting me at night and during the day. The only way for me to address them was to name and visualize them.
First I created Empowerment series - two paintings with which I reclaimed my body back. Then I wrote down 10 emotions that were constantly popping up at my head and gave them meaning. I painted what I felt and my Courage series was born.
Healing from narcissistic abuse isn't a linear path—it’s a collection of moments, realizations, and small victories. My work explores the architecture of that recovery. Each of my paintings in my Courage and Empowerment collection was born from the process of reclaiming identity, self-worth, and the quiet power found on the other side of trauma.
I know I am not alone to have been trapped by abuser, I know I am not the only one fighting family court system that fails to see the toll of it all on my child. I know that now, but I remember days I had crawled under my blanket and cried for hours beating myself up for being “free” but letting my child be affected more by my actions, feeling like a complete failure as I was not able to protect her from manipulation and mental abuse that now she has to face, feeling like I let her down. Now, a few years later I can see that many women feel the same way and we all think we are alone in it. I decided to come out with my truth and let that word “survivor” define me, because I believe that in sharing comes empowerment and strength.
Now I share my story through my art and I would love to continue to make a difference in the world, even if that difference means that YOU will know, that you are not alone, someone believes your truth, sees your pain and has faith in brighter future whatever it means to you.
I have created a small secret empowerment club for anyone who feels the need to be reminded of their strength.
My carefully curated artwork is being transferred from canvas to a print. My life story is finding its way to a paper and that all should find its way to your hands.
My The Art of Becoming mail club lasts exactly a year to accompany you on your own journey and its seasons. It’s combination of digital stories and digital content such as wallpapers and beautiful colorful art prints.
Each month I will share a 13×13 cm art print together with heart-rending story straight into your mailbox. Some months I will be sending bonus materials such as bookmark, affirmation card, digital wallpaper or extra digital stories.
Depending on your situation you may choose level of safety of physical email. If you are concerned about who might find and read your mail you might opt for safer version - art print + soft story about the art work itself + affirmation card. The real story behind the piece, the emotions and raw truth will be delivered to you to your private email. If you on the other hand are in safe environment, you might opt for the raw story to be delivered to you together with art print to your door.
I am currently building the community for this project. If you are ready to walk this path—or simply want a dedicated space of empowerment in your life—I invite you to join the waitlist. You will be the first to know when the club opens its doors.
